My Relationship to Writing

My Relationship to Writing
            Last year I wrote a paper, “To What Extent is Offred a Hero, If At All?” based on Margaret Atwood’s The Handmaid’s Tale, which was insightful and mildly entertaining. I have also reflected on how I planned my directed self-placement (DSP) essay. Through these works I learned how I would like to write, in one sense how to plan, and in another how I would like to write from a stylistic stand point.
            The DSP essay primarily helped me address how I plan and execute my writing. The University of Michigan provided the DSP essay in order to gauge what level of writing the students employ, and therefore what writing class would be appropriate. The essay asked incoming freshman to analyze an argument given by a professional writer and to defend, qualify, or refute her argument with examples given in the written text. I used a similar process for this writing assignment as I might have used in a high school writing class. I first reread the assignment multiple times in order to be sure that I full understood what the assignment asked of us. Next I wrote out a cohesive plan including my thesis statement, examples I would include in the body paragraphs, as well as a succinct conclusion. As I had learned in prior classes involving academic writing, a comprehensive plan provides an essential path towards success.
            Numerous challenges also arose during the writing process, perhaps most notably finding motivation to complete the assignment. I learned as part of the planning process that a lack of motivation arises while planning or completing a paper. Thus, I learned that for each stage of the writing process, a writer must pursue time to simply sit down for an allocated, completely free portion of time free of distractions to work through and complete the assigned task. Among the greatest success for any procrastinating writer is completing the assignment on time. Procrastination reared its ugly head frequently during my planning, editing, and polishing the near completed work. Again, the DSP essay not only enlightened me to these facts, but I also grew through it in terms of how I combat such a lack of motivation.
            I realize now that I did not take many risks. Other than my general laziness which caused some typing errors, I took very few risks. I started with an anecdote or allusion, then a clearly stated hypothesis, examples in each of the body paragraphs which pertained directly to the thesis, and then a succinct conclusion, so all in all a very conservative attempt and execution of the paper.
            Overall in my DSP paper, I played by the book through my rigorous planning and example finding beforehand, to the lack of humor/ controversial statements within the work. I learned that I frequently procrastinate at various points in the writing process and to address that one must find a quiet place with time to work. I also learned the benefits of rigorously planning beforehand to make writing the work easier.
            Thinking about the process of planning my DSP reminds me of my favorite piece of high school writing; my “To what Extent…” essay based The Handmaid’s Tale. The “To what Extent…” essay represents how I would like to write not only from a stylistic point of view, but also from a planning point of view. From the earliest points after having received the assignment, I planned this essay to an even greater extent than the DSP essay, knowing exactly what examples I would include, what quote I would use to capture the reader’s interest, and knowing where to attempt bits of humor. The work represented the perfect example of how I would seek to plan in the future and how learning that would affect my future writing. Interestingly enough, the paper initially seemed boring: another boring essay on a book, however once the idea to deconstruct the main character came to mind, I planned and wrote this essay with far more passion than any essay before it. The passion I had while meticulously planning and writing made the entire writing process for this essay semi-enjoyable. Perhaps the key is to find an idea one is passionate about, and then it may not seem such a hassle to carefully plan and write.
            The best example from the essay comes where I discredit an example which might have otherwise supported the opposite opinion. For me, the “best” example is one that can both be entertaining to read, and can put a point across. I write that the character of Offred in Margaret Atwood’s The Handmaid’s Tale, displays heroic characteristics, but ultimately lacks the agency to truly be considered a hero. In the dystopia of The Handmaid’s Tale “handmaids” are required to try and reproduce with the “commanders,” and in the book she develops somewhat of a personal relationship with the commander society assigned for her. In it the two play chess together as the Commander merely wants someone to talk to, and in exchange she receives lotion and works of fiction. In my essay I joke that the books she request may have appeared on a college reading list, instead of something like the Bible or the Feminine Mystique which may actually motivate individuals to change. This assignment helped me learn that I would like to continue to try and include witty jokes like that one.
I go on to argue that despite these actions displaying agency, for the actions to display traits of heroism, they must benefit someone other than herself, which in the case of her request for lotion and works of fiction, they do not. I go on to argue that she should attempt to learn potentially beneficial secrets for the still forming rebellion. Then I do something interesting stylistically: in italics I write a statement as if someone were arguing with me in person. Specifically: “But if the Commander suspects her of rebellion he could easily dispose of her and she would have to die”. I go on to say that she would likely die anyway, just by nature of the society (as if you do not reproduce, you get sent to the “colonies” where you die).
            Therefore, in my counter argument section where I discredit the opposite the argument, I exhibit a few characteristics which I would like to showcase how I would like to write. Firstly I joke that the Charles Dickens novel Offred requests is completely harmless and something that a university would place on its recommended summer reading list. Realistically, this addition really did not improve the paper, though I feel the occasional use of humor does leave a positive taste in the reader’s mouth. Additionally this sort of joke made the paper significantly more fun to write. Secondly I attempt to create my own style by arguing the opposite point in italics, something I learned through this assignment. The use of this technique seeks to give my work a unique sort of informal vibe, especially when used in conjunction with the occasional joke. Thus the use of humor and my own stylistic features evidence the claim that I learned how I would like to write through the assignment.
            Before the super-religious instituted the handmaid system, they had to clear some obstacles first. Most notably, they (i.e. the institutors of the super-conservative revolution) removed women from the work place on the grounds that women should not work. She tells her boyfriend, “We still have each other”. I go on to criticize that she displays zero agency as she has just willingly accepted her termination of employment on the grounds of being a women, in exchange for nothing. I go on to add that the conservative revolution takes place in the modern world, why did she not unite with other women and “bring down the wrath of Athena down on the still young and vulnerable fundamentalist government?” This joke incorporates classical allusion to the Greek goddess of wisdom while still questioning why Offred would have done nothing to try and maintain her place in society. The joke also encapsulates how I would like to write: I use humor and allusion making the writing interesting, while simultaneously managing to express my point.
            In the novel, Offred has sex with a butler, Nick, repeatedly which breaks the rules of the fundamentalist society. I break this down by initially noting that the act “screams individuality”, but in totalitarianism there are no individual acts, which is the point of totalitarianism. This supposed act of individuality may appear altogether personal, but it fits the system’s desire for her perfectly. As in, the author never mentioned any contraceptives in use, therefore she could theoretically get pregnant any of the times she has sex with Nick (if the circumstances align properly), and bearing children is precisely what the system wants her to do, in fact, it is her entire purpose. I conclude, therefore, that “this is not only selfish, but acts in favor of the system” thus yielding the action unheroic.

            To conclude, through my DSP essay I learned how to properly plan and adapt as I get the urge to procrastinate, though I did not enjoy writing the assignment itself. I found the planning and all aspects of writing it incredibly tedious. Contrastingly, my “To what Extent” essay helped me learn how I would like to write through its use of relative informality through the occasional witty remark and frequent italicized counterpoints which I rebuttal. This essay contrasted with the DSP greatly in its tone and execution. One potential problem with pursuing an informal tone in future writing is that it varies greatly in effectiveness from professor to professor: some might appreciate a witty joke, while others may find in an unacceptable variation from the standard, straight road of unexciting academic writing. Regardless, in the future I will continue to try and use the planning I learned through my DSP and the mild humor of my “To what Extent…” essay.

Reflection: I think I fulfilled the assignment sheet quite well, overall. I was supposed to address how I would like to write, and how I have written in the past. In this essay, I accomplish this. I outline how in my essay on Atwood's work I use a bit of humor, and the organizational habits I used for the DSP essay which allowed for the completion of that assignment.
Unfortunately, though, I spelled a number of words wrong. "Contrastingly" is apparently not a word, nor is "unheroic", nor "institutors" (of a regime). This, again, reveals a certain stylistic element to my writing: that I like to make up words, which may or may not be appropriate for academic writing, depending of course on my professor. 

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